Thursday 31 December 2020

2020 What A Year

2020 a year like no other. A year we never could have predicted or prepared for. A year that has tested our ability to adapt and conform. A year where we have all had to be resilient.

Many people have lost loved ones and in this respect I find myself grateful that to date my personal friends and family have either remained healthy or recovered well from the virus. When reflecting on the last 12 months it is easy to recall and dwell on the struggles. However, I want to take this opportunity to focus on the good.

In January Calvin put up his paws and started life as a retired Guide Dog. For 5 weeks my life was put on hold whilst I trained with new boy Riley. In February we qualified as a partnership. Prior to the first lockdown on Tuesday 24th March, no doubt a quiz question of the future I managed to partake in some fun activities. Afternoon teas, charity quizzes, Norrie Disease family day, Crufts and a trip to the theatre to see The Book of Mormon.

Then the pause button was pressed on normality. The world became a frightful place. In spite of this new discoveries were made. Zoom. What a magical concept. I started a mindfulness course with Look and could still connect with my Book Club.

In April I relished one of my jobs becoming home based saving me the stress of travelling to Coventry and Warwickshire. I was fortunate that my other job put me on furlough meaning I was financially secure.

Summer came early allowing for countless garden days and I enjoyed running solo at my local cricket pitch. The gym and shops opened in time for my birthday in July. Whilst in August we took advantage of eat out to help out and managed to physically meet up with friends for a BBQ.

The highlight of September was a night away in Old Hunstanton. I was on the beach in shorts in Britain! Calvin and Riley had the best time playing on the beach. Calvin was puppy walked by the sea and he totally forgot his 12 and a half years of age as he sprinted around and jumped on me to thank me for bringing him. Riley learnt the hard way that drinking sea water isn’t a good idea as he spectacularly spewed up at dinner. Thankfully it was a dog friendly hotel. I’m sure he wasn’t the first pup to throw up and I’m sure he won’t be the last. There was something quite special having both of my boys with me at dinner and breakfast in the hotel. I did feel pretty smug as they both behaved impeccably compared to the other canine guests.

Life has become more restrictive again in the final few months of the year. I haven’t been allowed to train at Loughborough’s world class athletics facilities throughout the pandemic. Instead I have been running at a local track that is far from luxurious. Nevertheless, I have been running. Running on a track. Running bends. Running pain free. I feel a tad of emotion just writing that. After getting injured in 2017 and subsequent knee surgery last year I always hoped but never truly knew that it would be possible for me to run again on the track. I genuinely treasure every step.

As the year draws to a close it is evident that 2020 has been very different. Personally it has caused me to reassess my values and what is important in life. We have to take the good from the bad and control what we can. Who knows what 2021 will bring…

Wishing everyone a happy and healthier new year.

Saturday 12 September 2020

British Cycling

It’s a sunny Saturday in September. The perfect opportunity to relax in the garden and reflect on my experience at the British Cycling talent ID weekend I attended last month.

We all know I am athletics obsessed. You only have to check who I follow on Twitter to learn I am an avid fan. Whilst injury has prevented me from competing in over 3 years, my commitment to the sport still remains.

Thus when British Cycling advertised their search for a female visually impaired stoker for the Tokyo Paralympics back in June, my immediate response was dismissive. For years people have been encouraging me to try cycling and for years I have whistled the same tune, ‘no I love athletics.’

Although initially reluctant to put myself forward, the amount of messages I received from different people urging me to go for it started to get my cogs whirling. I had nothing to lose, it didn’t mean I had to quit athletics, wouldn’t it be worth finally finding out if it was a sport that I could excel at. After all I have seen multiple athletes transition from athletics to cycling. There must be something good about it.

With gyms closed and no access to a bike it wasn’t as if I could prepare myself for the weekend as I would have liked. In truth during lockdown my motivation and ability to train was proving a challenge. Nevertheless, the prospect of the weekend marginally improved my drive to exercise.

Prior to the weekend I was informed there would be 3 bike tests. 3 x 6 second sprints, a 1 minute effort and a 3 minute effort. Being a sprinter I was looking forward to the 6 second sprints and the others not so much. Based on the results from the tests on the Sunday we would be split into 3 groups that would indicate if we had Tokyo potential, Paris potential or currently lacked potential. The thought of being placed in the final group somewhat terrified me. Despite having nothing to lose that result would be a slap in the face.

The talent ID weekend was being held in Manchester. Thankfully I didn’t need to arrive until the afternoon meaning it wasn’t a too early start. To give you some context, I have never been to a velodrome, never worn cycling shoes or ridden a turbo bike. This caused some apprehension. My mum travelled up with me and was soon ushered away to the stands leaving me alone with the British Cycling staff and the other hopefuls. Being left without direct support also unnerved me.

Various British Cycling people came over to chat and help me set up. However, as soon as they came over it wasn’t long before they disappeared again. I didn’t fully understand how the gears worked on the bike, the person helping me didn’t fully understand I couldn’t see when they told me to push the black leaver. I asked if they could sort the gears for me, I assumed they needed to be set on a specific setting anyway. I was left to warm up and was told after 5 minutes had past to pick up the speed. Not being able to see the timer of course I had no idea when it was time to change up and so just turned over gently.

For the actual test part we were all allocated an individual. For the 6 second sprints we had to go from a static start. I had no clue what position my pedals should be in to get the best start. On my first sprint the bike moved everywhere to my surprise. That kind of thing never happens with the bikes in the gym. My second sprint felt better and the power output reflected this. My final sprint was better again and my competitiveness that had been lying dormant for so long began to trigger. I vocalised that I could do so much more. This led them to letting me have a fourth attempt where I added another 40 odd to my power output. I could see my potential, I hoped they could too.

The person helping me with my bike clicked the gears for me before the 1 minute effort began. Fuelled up from the sprints I was ready to go all out. I was then stunned when I pushed down on the pedals to discover I could hardly turnover. The resistance was stupidly tough. I assumed everyone was on the same resistance and pushed on as best I could. The desire to stop was overwhelming. However, I knew not finishing the effort would be embarrassing. So I kept repeating to myself ‘don’t’ stop’. When I got off the bike my left knee was throbbing and I had some soreness near my right knee that when I got home I found was swollen. The effort had flared up an old injury and caused another with the 3 minute effort still to go.

I made it clear for the 3 minute attempt that I would not be having the resistance that high. Feelings of frustration flooded me. My legs were on fire. The 3 minute effort actually turned out to be a 3 minute 30 second effort. They take your best 3 minutes from the set time. I managed it relatively well but all things considered knew it wouldn’t be amazing. After the tests had been completed I learnt that the gears could have been set to whatever you wished. This infuriated me even more. As a totally blind person who had never used a turbo bike before it wasn’t explained to me enough how to set the gears and know what they were set on. It wasn’t made apparent before the tests that we could choose the setting. I thought for it to be fair everyone would have to be on the same setting.

I returned home that night and wasn’t enthusiastic about returning in the morning. I knew my ability hadn’t been showcased. My visual impairment hadn’t been understood. All of the females attending the talent ID weekend had a visual impairment but having no useful vision left me in a minority. In athletics there are 3 classifications for the visually impaired, in cycling the visually impaired are altogether.

It was an early start on Sunday to get back to Manchester. The only real reason I was returning was to cycle on the velodrome to say I have done it. It was becoming apparent that I was unlikely to continue with cycling in the future. All of the hopefuls were grouped together to find out which group they would be in. it was like waiting for the X Factor results. They decided to read out group A and B together first then we would be split again. Names started to be read out and I was relieved to hear mine. They had thankfully acknowledged I have some kind of potential.

For a moment I dared to believe that I would be put in group A. it quickly became obvious I hadn’t. in fact my name was bottom of the group B list. I don’t know if names were in any particular order yet it appeared I had just scraped through. I then had to sit and wait for hours before I was given 10 minutes on the velodrome with a pilot. I’m not going to lie I did enjoy my brief time on the back of the tandem. However, the vibes I was getting from the British Cycling staff told me blatantly that I was not on their radar for the future.

The following week I received a call from British Cycling confirming that they were not interested in me at this time. It was no surprise. I didn’t hesitate in providing my feedback when prompted. They did comment that my 6 second sprints ranked me quite highly. Initially following the weekend I was of the firm belief that me and cycling were done. Having time to think about it all the experience was extremely beneficial. It has reignited my competitive spirit. My heart still lies with athletics. Yet I am struggling to accept that British Cycling didn’t get to witness my capability. I want to prove I have potential, prove I can, prove them wrong.

18 visually impaired females attended the talent ID weekend. British Cycling have chosen 3 to progress to the next stage. It was brilliant to see so many visually impaired females participating in sport.

Monday 31 August 2020

I'm Back

I just don’t understand myself sometimes. I set myself a challenge of writing 26 blog posts over 26 days and have no trouble in completing the task. In fact it reminds me how much I enjoy blogging and how beneficial I find it. So why have I failed to blog in over 3 months? I am a mystery to myself.

The last 3 months feel like a bit of a blur. The whole year is drifting by. Last month I celebrated my 32nd birthday. There is something reassuring about being an even number once more. We went for a family walk around Burbage Common in the morning. This was then followed by a trip to Fosse Shopping Park. It was the first day it had reopened after we had been put back in lockdown for a second time. It was my first visit to any kind of retail provider in months. Riley squealed with delight when we pulled up. The boy adores shopping. I didn’t actually buy anything and found I was afraid to touch items to inspect them. Continuing the first in a few months theme, I had a Chinese takeaway for dinner. In normal circumstances the day would have been classed as ordinary. However, we all know the new normal is so far removed from what was everyday life.

I am not going to ramble on too much in this post. I know what I want my next blog to be about and hope to bring it to you in less than 3 months’ time! I promise it will be more interesting than this post.

Thursday 21 May 2020

The Finish Line

Blog 26 – 2.6 Challenge – 26 blog posts over 26 days…

Hooray this is my final post for the 2.6 Challenge. The writing marathon has come to an end. It has been a good experience overall. I have managed to write about a lot of subjects that I have been meaning to for a long time. It has been interesting how on some days I planned to write about one topic but then the blog has evolved into something else. There were a few late nights that displeased me. However, it has proved to me that if I really want to blog about something I am able to make the time.

I am not sure how many people have actually read my posts. Though the one great thing about written text is that it is there to access at any point. I hope people have found the content varied and interesting. I mainly write for myself and if someone finds a post useful or entertaining it is a bonus. On some days I wasn’t sure what to write about, on others I found it hard to find the right words. Having a daily deadline meant I couldn’t keep redrafting and posts weren’t always as polished as I would have liked. Nevertheless, I made a commitment and stuck to it. I’m pretty proud of that. It has been some years since my blog was filled with so much content. Funnily there are still posts I wish to write.

According to my fundraising page I have raised £72.86 to date. I know when split 5 ways that isn’t much per charity. However, I have tried to do my bit. I’m super grateful to everyone who has supported this challenge and donated. If you are stumbling across this post a few weeks or few months on, there might still be time to donate as fundraising pages stay open for a while afterwards. Every donation I receive makes me smile and means a lot to my chosen charities.

I took part in the 2.6 Challenge to help save our UK charities. If you enjoyed my blog posts or are feeling generous please consider donating as little as £1 to support my chosen charities: The Norrie Disease Foundation, Guide Dogs for the Blind, Look UK, RNIB and Girl Guiding UK. You can find my fundraising page by clicking here

Thank you and stay safe x



Wednesday 20 May 2020

I See

Blog 25 – 2.6 Challenge – 26 blog posts over 26 days…

Even though I can’t see, I can see. I can see the past so vividly. It astonishes me how clearly I can recollect the past. I don’t just recall the basics like colours, I know details. For example, I can remember certain images and patterns on my clothes. I can picture characters from cartoons, such as Gus from Recess and Tommy from the Rugrats. I can see the shape of Gus’s glasses and how his trousers are too short thus exposing his socks. My mind’s eye can view Tommy’s bald head, the blue of his t-shirt and how he stands with bowed legs. As a child I never consciously stored these images, yet they are there for me to access on demand.

In the present I can see. I imagine my surroundings constantly. When I go for a walk and a car passes me by I give it a make and a colour. When I use a controlled crossing I picture the capital letters of ‘wait’ highlight itself after I have pressed the button. At home in my kitchen I envisage my red appliances; kettle, microwave and toaster. I still look at myself in the mirror. I visualise my reflection, how my hair falls, how my facial features look.

In my dreams I can see. Rarely am I blind and if I am I can still watch the dream play out in pictures. Every night my brain constructs lavish landscapes and intricate scenes. I have the ability to freely access my dream world. I wander around oblivious to my visual impairment.

In reality I cannot see. Wave your hand in front of my face and I will just feel the breeze it creates. Exit a room without a word and I will believe you are still sharing my space. Many people assume that the blind live in darkness. I can confirm that we live in pictures.

I am taking part in the 2.6 Challenge to help save our UK charities. If you enjoyed my blog post or are feeling generous please consider donating as little as £1 to support my chosen charities: The Norrie Disease Foundation, Guide Dogs for the Blind, Look UK, RNIB and Girl Guiding UK. You can find my fundraising page by clicking here

Thank you and stay safe x


Tuesday 19 May 2020

Plant Power

Blog 24 – 2.6 Challenge – 26 blog posts over 26 days…

After having writer’s block a couple of days ago I’m going to try writing about food again.

Food, it fuels the body. Without it survival is impossible. In the last few years my food habits have shifted. Due to being Muslim I have never eaten meat from a pig. In general I have never been a massive meat eater. This might sound silly but I don’t like chewing. I am certain I have weakened teeth from having a brace in my teens. Anyway, when I did eat meat I would tend to go for chicken. I found it less greasy. As an adult I have always been keen on fish. I’m quite the health addict and can’t ignore the benefits that fishy oils claim to have.

My partner is vegan and has been for many years. Before it got trendy. Since being together not once have I considered joining him despite him being the perfect advert. For those who have watched The Game Changers on Netflix you will know that veganism is meant to have a whole host of health benefits. My partner displays them all. For some reason it isn’t enough to convince me.

I can’t see myself eating meat again as my mind won’t disconnect from where it comes from. For now I am able to justify eating fish. I don’t know when it officially happened but I identify as being pescatarian. I eat seafood in what otherwise is a vegetarian diet.

Saying this I mainly eat a plant based diet as it is easier to eat the same lunch and dinner as my partner. Veganism is rapidly expanding and it is nice to try new foods. People often used to say what do vegans eat? The answer is that they eat practically everything only in vegan form. Vegan lasagne, vegan kebab and vegan chilli are some of our favourite dishes. A couple of weeks ago we created our own vegan afternoon tea complete with sweet scones with a choice of jam and cream, a variety of sandwiches and a selection of desserts. It was yummy.

I urge everyone to broaden their taste buds and give plant based food a go. Try something new, something different, something ethical. By all means still eat what you enjoy. I have no intention of committing to a vegan diet so I don’t expect anyone else to.

I am taking part in the 2.6 Challenge to help save our UK charities. If you enjoyed my blog post or are feeling generous please consider donating as little as £1 to support my chosen charities: The Norrie Disease Foundation, Guide Dogs for the Blind, Look UK, RNIB and Girl Guiding UK. You can find my fundraising page by clicking here

Thank you and stay safe x



Monday 18 May 2020

Sharing the Struggles

Blog 23 – 2.6 Challenge – 26 blog posts over 26 days…

I have been visually impaired for as long as I can remember. It has been 13 years since I had useful vision. Useful vision being the ability to see shapes, colours and print with the aid of a CCTV magnifier. It has been even longer since I could read print unaided, play sports such as netball and tennis, function like a fully sighted person. Today marks the beginning of mental health week. Generally I don’t mind being blind. I have adapted and lead a fulfilling life. However, losing my vision throughout my childhood was hard. I didn’t just lose my sight, I lost my confidence, friendships and identity. If I still had good partial vision I wouldn’t be the same person I am today. My sight loss has caused me to become a version of myself that I never planned on being.

Do I miss having sight? In all honesty I do every single day. There is always something I want a quick glimpse of from knowing what a tinned can is in the cupboard to watching the boys playing tug. I wish I knew what my partner looked like, I wish I could see all of those silly memes and gifs. I wish every second of everyday wasn’t so difficult. The level of concentration needed to pour a cup of tea or the extra effort needed to find something on a table can be draining. People don’t see the little struggles because I have learnt to get on with life, present myself as capable and confident. I believe human nature forces us to hide our weaknesses. Yet we shouldn’t be afraid to share our imperfections. Whilst I portray positivity within my blog posts, I hope people recognise and appreciate that I don’t shy away from writing about the difficulties of sight loss too.

For years I convinced myself that being blind wasn’t forever. There would be a cure. I would regain vision again. I lived in denial. I’m not sure exactly when it happened, when I started to accept my blindness. It was probably a combination of factors from taking athletics seriously where my sight loss was irrelevant to mixing with other visually impaired people. Other people who had experienced sight loss, visually impaired people that acted as sub-conscious role models to me who demonstrated that being blind doesn’t stop you from living.

I accept that I can’t see. I accept that the simplest of tasks can prove quite the challenge. Being blind causes me stress and anxiety on a daily basis. I can’t wave a magic wand to fix my vision. What I can do is not let my lack of vision control me. I control it. I take on the testing situations and applaud my achievements. Sometimes I fail and consider defeat. Then I take a deep breath and vow to try again.

If you are struggling with your mental health please don’t feel embarrassed or scared to seek support.

I am taking part in the 2.6 Challenge to help save our UK charities. If you enjoyed my blog post or are feeling generous please consider donating as little as £1 to support my chosen charities: The Norrie Disease Foundation, Guide Dogs for the Blind, Look UK, RNIB and Girl Guiding UK. You can find my fundraising page by clicking here

Thank you and stay safe x

Sunday 17 May 2020

A Day in the Life

Blog 22 – 2.6 Challenge – 26 blog posts over 26 days…

I’m going to be honest, I don’t know what I want to blog about today. Well I do, the plan was to talk food. I just can’t figure out where to start with it. Writer’s block. Instead of torturing myself, I am going to leave that post for another day.

Since my mind isn’t firing on all cylinders I’m simply going to write about my day. I’m sitting in my garden absorbing the sunshine. This is one of my favourite pastimes and is making me crave a holiday. Without fail I go on at least one beach holiday per year. In fact last May I was in Majorca. I was due to go to Turkey last October, but the collapse of Thomas Cook meant our holiday was cancelled. I’m definitely ready to feel the sand between my toes and to listen to the soothing sounds of the waves lapping the shore. I wish I lived closer to the coast. Grumble, grumble.

I have a very good internal clock and naturally wake up around 6.45 each morning. This is also the time my heating clicks on. I spend the boys, feed the boys and then sit down to BBC Breakfast with a bowl of cereal and a cup of tea. reading that back I sound very middle aged!

For the last few days I haven’t been getting out with Riley until the early evening. So I promised him a morning walk today. We tackled one of our new routes and I think it is the best we have done it. I didn’t have to remove too many slobbery sticks from Riley’s mouth and we didn’t drift off track too much. I have noticed morning walkers, joggers and cyclists are friendlier than the afternoon and evening folk. We received numerous greetings and people actively cleared the way for us to ensure social distancing was being observed. This makes a walk much more pleasant.

A 75 minute walk did nothing to tire Riley out and he was full of beans on our return. He played frantically with Calvin and did some crazy running around the garden. I’m not sure what Riley’s issue is but he rarely steps foot on to the grass in the garden. When I wanted to groom him on the grass the other day you would have thought I was trying to pull him off the edge of a cliff.

Before lunch I had my daily chat with my mum. She likes to tell me about every second of her day and night so our phone calls are often quite lengthy. When she takes a half breath I am able to get in and share the happenings from my end. She reads my blog and I know will laugh at the mentioning of her monologues. We have a very close relationship.

Since lunch I have been listening to The History of Bees by Maja Lunde. I only started it yesterday and need to finish it in time for book club on Wednesday night. We used to meet at a different pub each month to discuss the latest book choice. Now we are meeting via Zoom. There are 7 of us in the group and we take it in turns to choose a book. Last month was my choice and I chose The Friend by Dorothy Koomson. I am known for my harsh reviews. Whilst I don’t always love the book choice I like reading books I never would have picked.

After posting this blog I am going to work out in our home gym before dinner and Netflix. I am really hoping Riverdale has an exciting climax. The show is so bad that it is good.

I am taking part in the 2.6 Challenge to help save our UK charities. If you enjoyed my blog post or are feeling generous please consider donating as little as £1 to support my chosen charities: The Norrie Disease Foundation, Guide Dogs for the Blind, Look UK, RNIB and Girl Guiding UK. You can find my fundraising page by clicking here

Thank you and stay safe x


Saturday 16 May 2020

Accessible Fitness

Blog 21 – 2.6 Challenge – 26 blog posts over 26 days…

Before the pandemic it was a known fact that visually impaired people regularly experienced social isolation. Therefore I find it somewhat surprising that it has taken the entire nation to be socially isolated to prompt accessible homebased activities. Perhaps it existed to a degree and it wasn’t well advertised or utilised. I hope post pandemic charities and businesses will continue the online work they have started.

Staying fit and healthy is something that I feel strongly about. I think everyone should have the opportunity to feel the adrenaline rush that exercise gives you. Since the lockdown I have come across two fantastic resources that I encourage visually impaired people to take advantage of.

First is the British Blind Sport stay in work out face book group. To date the group has 360 members. This immediately tells me that not enough people know about the group. It is a place to talk about sport and share experiences. There are also a host of accessible work out videos from boxercise to strength and tone. Currently each Wednesday they do a live work out that people can access via Zoom. Just search British Blind Sport stay in work out on Face Book and you should find the group.

The second resource is the Look UK You Tube channel. Check out their keep fit videos from yoga to circuits. They also have some other interesting content to browse once you have worked up a sweat. If you are keen on poetry then you might want to get involved with their poetry challenge. Exercising the mind is important too.

I am taking part in the 2.6 Challenge to help save our UK charities. If you enjoyed my blog post or are feeling generous please consider donating as little as £1 to support my chosen charities: The Norrie Disease Foundation, Guide Dogs for the Blind, Look UK, RNIB and Girl Guiding UK. You can find my fundraising page by clicking here

Thank you and stay safe x



Friday 15 May 2020

Who Are You?

Blog 20 – 2.6 Challenge – 26 blog posts over 26 days…

I am female, a girl, a woman. A daughter, a sister, an advocate. A girlfriend, a partner, a lover. A friend, a listening ear, a confidante. A volunteer, a unit helper, an ambassador. An expert by experience, a voice, a colleague. A Guide Dog owner, a mother, a playmate. A reader, a critique, a endorser. A blogger, a diarist, a sharer. An athlete, a sprinter, a chaser. A learner, a graduate, an achiever. A face booker, a tweeter, a stranger. A disabled person, a visually impaired person, a fighter. A dreamer, a doer, a try hard. A pescatarian, a believer, a Muslim. I am Selina, a human, a somebody.

We are all so many things. So many different personas. Something to someone. Don’t ever think you are a nobody.

I am taking part in the 2.6 Challenge to help save our UK charities. If you enjoyed my blog post or are feeling generous please consider donating as little as £1 to support my chosen charities: The Norrie Disease Foundation, Guide Dogs for the Blind, Look UK, RNIB and Girl Guiding UK. You can find my fundraising page by clicking here

Thank you and stay safe x



Thursday 14 May 2020

Working From Home

Blog 19 – 2.6 Challenge – 26 blog posts over 26 days…

I’m writing this post late in the day, my brain is somewhat fried. However, I have committed to writing these 26 blog posts over 26 days and I am not one who likes to quit easily. I am running on fumes after working yesterday and today. I’m also working tomorrow which is super rare for me to work 3 days in a row. Anyone who manages to work fulltime I commend you. I enjoy working but it always mentally drains me. The work I do is intense, both with Choice Support and Voiceability. Yet I know the work I do as an Expert by Experience is highly important. It literally impacts on vulnerable people’s lives. I have the chance to help make a positive difference.

Since the pandemic lots of people are now working from home. As a visually impaired person I much prefer it. I no longer have to stress about getting to work on time. I don’t have to worry about bus or train delays or panic about traffic jams. I get to work in a familiar environment rather than visiting varying venues that I might get used to but then always be in a different room. I don’t have to depend on people to help me find the toilet or a suitable spending area for my Guide Dog. I have the freedom to move around at break and lunchtimes. I have access to all of my assistive technology. I am more independent, more in control.

There are some negatives around homeworking like dodgy internet connections. I think it makes it harder to build a rapport with colleagues too as you are heavily focused on the job in hand as opposed to having small talk. Although we do chat informally for short periods. Conference calls amuse me as now everyone struggles to read the cues for a good time to talk and people end up interrupting each other. A colleague said yesterday that she is learning to recognise people by voice, I told her ‘welcome to my world’!

I am taking part in the 2.6 Challenge to help save our UK charities. If you enjoyed my blog post or are feeling generous please consider donating as little as £1 to support my chosen charities: The Norrie Disease Foundation, Guide Dogs for the Blind, Look UK, RNIB and Girl Guiding UK. You can find my fundraising page by clicking here

Thank you and stay safe x





Wednesday 13 May 2020

Loosening of Lockdown

Blog 18 – 2.6 Challenge – 26 blog posts over 26 days…

Today is the first day of looser lockdown rules for people in England. Some people welcome them whilst others claim the move has come too soon. Either way the changes have been made. For me as a Guide Dog owner the new rules are going to make life that little bit easier.

From today people in England are permitted to take exercise outside multiple times per day. This means that I can choose to take Riley on a single long walk, a free run, 2 shorter walks or a walk and a free run. The variation will hopefully keep him more engaged and willing to work. Our partnership is still very young and I am determined to make sure the current circumstances don’t break us.

The limitless exercise also means I will be able to go for walks with retired Guide Dog Calvin and my partner. I have missed walking with Calvin. We free run the boys together but it isn’t practical to walk them together. Going out with Calvin will be a good opportunity for Riley to relearn how to be home alone for short periods. He has gotten very used to always coming out with me and has started to whine excitedly when I put my shoes on.

The one other advantage to the new rules is the ability to drive anywhere. We have been free running the boys as locally as possible. Now we feel comfortable to travel that bit further out and will be visiting some of our favourite free running locations within Leicestershire.

I intend on embracing this new normal as best as I can. I accept life is going to feel peculiar for the
Foreseeable future. The situation is out of our control but we can control how we deal with it.

I am taking part in the 2.6 Challenge to help save our UK charities. If you enjoyed my blog post or are feeling generous please consider donating as little as £1 to support my chosen charities: The Norrie Disease Foundation, Guide Dogs for the Blind, Look UK, RNIB and Girl Guiding UK. You can find my fundraising page by clicking here

Thank you and stay safe x



Tuesday 12 May 2020

The Theatre

Blog 17 – 2.6 Challenge – 26 blog posts over 26 days…

Back in march I went to see an audio described performance of The Book of Moorman at the Birmingham Hippodrome. Going to the theatre is an activity that I like to do on a regular basis. I prefer to see audio described shows where possible ensuring that I don’t miss out on the action. However, if I really want to see a show and it is local then I will go along anyway and still have a good time. I tend to be drawn more towards musicals although dramas can be entertaining too. I find myself often checking the Vocaleyes website for upcoming audio described performances, keen to fill up my diary. I have seen numerous shows over the years and my favourites on multiple occasions. There are still an array of shows I am desperate to see.

I was looking forward to seeing Phantom of the Opera at the end of March and Six next month. Both shows were being audio described at my local theatre, The Curve. I have tickets for the Wizard of Oz at the end of November. Our social lives have been placed on hold for now. When it is safe, I thoroughly recommend seeing the below-

1. Cats
2. Harry Potter and the Cursed Child
3. Blood Brothers
4. War Horse
5. Chicago
6. The Lion King
7. Sister Act
8. The Secret Diary of Adrian Mole – The Musical
9. The Mousetrap
10. Avenue Q

I am taking part in the 2.6 Challenge to help save our UK charities. If you enjoyed my blog post or are feeling generous please consider donating as little as £1 to support my chosen charities: The Norrie Disease Foundation, Guide Dogs for the Blind, Look UK, RNIB and Girl Guiding UK. You can find my fundraising page by clicking here

Thank you and stay safe x




Monday 11 May 2020

Fire Stick

Blog 16 – 2.6 Challenge – 26 blog posts over 26 days…

The weather has changed and lockdown continues. For me this means spending less time in the garden listening to audio books and more time in the house watching TV. This post will talk about the Amazon Fire TV Stick with Alexa remote 2nd generation. We have only had it for around a month so I am still learning all about its features. Forgive me if you know some of what I write is inaccurate. It is just my experience to date. Prior to purchasing the device I was completely clueless about what it could do and its accessibility. Perhaps there are others out there like me and for whom this post will be enlightening.

So what is it?
In a nutshell a Fire Stick allows you to stream programmes on your TV and access services such as Netflix, Disney Plus, Amazon Prime and catch up TV. You can also listen to music, play games and interact with Alexa. You will need a compatible TV and an internet connection.

Accessibility
My sighted partner set it up so I can’t comment on how easy that part is to do when you are visually impaired. However, the Fire Stick comes with a built in screen reader called Voice View. There are options for high contrast and magnification too. Voice View allows you to navigate around the main screen and select the item you want. Unfortunately each app is independent of the screen reader. Therefore, like Voice Over on IOS devices accessibility of apps will vary.

On a positive note I have found the popular streaming services of Netflix and Disney Plus to be highly accessible with Voice View. I don’t have Amazon Prime but would assume that works fine as the Fire Stick is made by Amazon. Both Netflix and Disney Plus have some audio described content which is a bonus. At first the menus appear hard to navigate. With practice it becomes easier. The menus show in grid view and thus you find yourself scrolling left and right along rows to discover the content.

This might be me doing something wrong, apologies if that is the case. Catch up services including BBC iPlayer and Channel 4 OD seem inaccessible. Voice View will work to an extent within the apps and then suddenly cease to speak. I have found it possible to play content from the services from the main Fire Stick screen. I am not entirely sure if audio description can be enabled or not. In the past I have accessed catch up TV from my iPhone where I know the apps are accessible and audio description can be activated.

Alexa
Until I got a Fire Stick I didn’t really know what all the fuss was about with Alexa. She is somewhat cool. Voice View is useful but Alexa can speed the process up when it comes to finding an app or playing a show. There is a button on the remote that you press to interact with her.

There are lots of games that you can play with Alexa including a variety of quizzes. You can also ask her to play music. I like to tell her to launch the Body Coach. Joe Wicks has become pretty popular of late and his 15 minute work outs on Alexa are great. I do have a good understanding of most circuit style exercises but I think he describes them really well. If fitness isn’t your thing you could ask Alexa to burp or fart instead!

Overall the Amazon Fire TV Stick 2nd generation gets a thumbs up from me. I know there is still a vast amount of content on it that I am yet to discover and look forward to doing so, right after I have finished watching series 4 of Riverdale.

I am taking part in the 2.6 Challenge to help save our UK charities. If you enjoyed my blog post or are feeling generous please consider donating as little as £1 to support my chosen charities: The Norrie Disease Foundation, Guide Dogs for the Blind, Look UK, RNIB and Girl Guiding UK. You can find my fundraising page by clicking here

Thank you and stay safe x


Sunday 10 May 2020

Keeping Fit

Blog 15 – 2.6 Challenge – 26 blog posts over 26 days…

For anyone who knows me they will know my life revolves around exercise. In normal circumstances I would train with my guide runner on Mondays, Tuesdays, Thursdays and Saturdays. Due to social distancing combined with the athletics track and gym being closed this is not possible at the moment. Having my weekly structure disrupted has caused me to slack a little with regards to keeping fit. This week I have only worked out twice. When I do train I relish the adrenaline rush. It’s difficult to understand why my discipline has slipped. I have Fitbit scales and weigh myself every morning without fail. Each day my body weight and fat percentage increase. I’m sure I am not the only one.

I might be lacking my usual motivation, but I ensure as a minimum I get out for my daily exercise. An energetic 2 year old makes sure of that one. Before lockdown I only had 3 block routes that I could walk independently with a Guide Dog with the longest being 50 minutes. Riley soon communicated his boredom by starting to eat sticks and pine cones on our walks. This negative behaviour has encouraged me to learn new routes that are up to 90 minutes in length. Riley is happier with the longer walks, but I know he is missing travelling on public transport, going shopping and spending time in places.

Prior to my partner moving in I had an Orangery built in order to house his home gym. At the time I thought it was ridiculous. Now I am kind of grateful. I have access to a squat rack complete with Olympic bar and plates. There is also a bench and dumbbells. This means I can deadlift, clean, squat and press until my heart’s content. Whilst I am not training as intensely as usual I am still managing to increase the load gradually and creep towards the weights I was able to do before my knee injury.

I suspect one cause of my fat and weight gain is a result of the limited cardio I am able to do at present. I keep debating on buying an exercise bike. Riley walks at a swift pace, but it just isn’t quite enough. Once a week I go to a cricket pitch to do athletics drills and fartlek session. I have been used to running on the rugby and hockey pitches at Loughborough University where the surfaces are totally flat. The cricket pitch is kept in good condition yet being real grass has bumps here and there. It isn’t entirely ideal but it is better than nothing. It is nice to have the opportunity to partake in what I love, sprinting.

We are all living in an odd reality. Everyone has had to adapt. Nobody was prepared. All we can do is make the best of a tricky situation. There will be days that pass us by. I guess we are only human. There will be other days that are filled with productivity. Focus can be lost and found again. We just need to live day by day.

I am taking part in the 2.6 Challenge to help save our UK charities. If you enjoyed my blog post or are feeling generous please consider donating as little as £1 to support my chosen charities: The Norrie Disease Foundation, Guide Dogs for the Blind, Look UK, RNIB and Girl Guiding UK. You can find my fundraising page by clicking here

Thank you and stay safe x





Saturday 9 May 2020

What's in a Photo

Blog 14 – 2.6 Challenge – 26 blog posts over 26 days…

As mentioned in my previous post we live in a very photographic world. People constantly snap selfies, share funny memes and screen shot text. Unfortunately for people with no useful vision like myself photos can make us feel excluded from society. However, there is a way of making photos accessible on both Face Book and Twitter. Here’s how-

Face Book
After you have posted a photo, click on more. A list of options will appear. Click on edit alt text. Face Book is good in that it automatically generates alt text for images which sometimes gives an indication of what the photo might contain. It is possible to override the automatically generated text and write in your own description. Then when screen readers scroll over the image it will read the description out.

Twitter
Go to settings and privacy then click on accessibility. Scroll down to compose image descriptions and toggle the feature on. Now when you compose a new tweet and add in an image there will be an option to add a description for this photo. Again when a screen reader scrolls over the photo the description will be read out.

It is quick and easy to insert descriptions to make your photos more inclusive. Descriptions don’t have to be essays. For example, you could write ‘image of me smiling on the beach’ or ‘image shows yellow Labrador basking in the sunshine’. Any description is better than none and is much appreciated by screen reader users.

I am taking part in the 2.6 Challenge to help save our UK charities. If you enjoyed my blog post or are feeling generous please consider donating as little as £1 to support my chosen charities: The Norrie Disease Foundation, Guide Dogs for the Blind, Look UK, RNIB and Girl Guiding UK. You can find my fundraising page by clicking here

Thank you and stay safe x


Friday 8 May 2020

Seeing AI

Blog 13 – 2.6 Challenge – 26 blog posts over 26 days…

I am halfway through my blogathon and have raised £62.86 to date. Considering the aim was to raise £26.20 I’m pretty happy. Thank you to everyone who has donated so far.

This post will focus on the app Seeing AI. It is free to download and has some great features designed to enhance the lives of the visually impaired. To access the different channels you swipe up with one finger if you are using it in conjunction with Voice Over on an IOS device.

Short Text
The first channel reads out short text. You hover your camera over what you want it to read out. I have found it useful to check who a letter is addressed to and when my screen reader freezes on my laptop.

Document
For longer pieces of text you can use the document channel. This is handy for reading post. Again you hover the camera and it will let you know if all edges of the page are visible before snapping a photo and converting the text.

Product
The third channel enables you to access barcodes on food products to discover what they are. I sometimes find this channel a little temperamental. You move the camera over the product and it emits audible pips to relay how close you are to a barcode. Once it sounds a long pip it means you have found the barcode and it takes a picture. I most need to use it on tins and perhaps because they are not a flat surface it is more difficult for the barcode to be detected.

Person
This channel is a little novel. It is face recognition. You can save images of people on the app and then take a photo of them in person mode. It will then tell you who they are. I think simply asking would be more effective.

Currency
Wave the camera over the money and Seeing AI will inform you of the denomination. Good for sorting notes out in your purse or wallet. Although money is becoming more accessible with the tactile markings these days for British pounds. It can recognise British pounds, Euros, US dollars, Canadian dollars, Indian rupees and Japanese yen.

Scene Preview
The accuracy of this one is somewhat questionable. I am currently writing in the garden and used the app to describe my surroundings. It says there is probably a little girl lying in the grass. The little girl is retired Guide Dog Calvin. Oh well.

Colour Preview
The channel is a colour detector. Again the accuracy isn’t perfect. Nevertheless it helps with identifying the colour of clothes so you can dress how you please.

Handwriting Preview
Like the short text feature, but to access handwriting instead. With a hover of the camera you can read greetings cards or that handwritten note.

Light
The final channel is a light detector. Listen and learn. Point the camera in the direction you wish to know the level of light. Depending on the brightness a different pitch will sound. You could use it when you are feeling too lazy to check if you have left a light on in a room or are not sure if you have opened the curtains.

Browse Photos
This feature is accessed from the main menu rather than the channel screen. It allows you to view your photo library and have Seeing AI describe each image. I find it the feature I use the most. We live in a very photographic world and therefore there are always photos on social media that I long to know what they are. Regularly photos are shots of text that a screen reader can’t access as it is in image form.

One app, so many features and all for free. Technology can be a wonderful thing.

I am taking part in the 2.6 Challenge to help save our UK charities. If you enjoyed my blog post or are feeling generous please consider donating as little as £1 to support my chosen charities: The Norrie Disease Foundation, Guide Dogs for the Blind, Look UK, RNIB and Girl Guiding UK. You can find my fundraising page by clicking here

Thank you and stay safe x




Thursday 7 May 2020

Retirement

Blog 12 – 2.6 Challenge – 26 blog posts over 26 days…

Retirement. We associate the word with growing old and giving up work. Just over 4 months ago Calvin hung up his harness and stopped being a Guide Dog. In March he turned 12 years old. Every time I remind myself of his age I am always surprised. He is a dog that will permanently be young at heart and for whom age is just a number.

Calvin is one of those dogs who never showed signs of not wanting to work anymore. Whilst I admired his dedication, it made the transition to a new dog difficult. As soon as I got the harness out, Calvin would be by my side ready to go. Even when he saw Riley have the harness on instead, Calvin would be trying to walk out of the door with us. Thankfully Calvin has learnt to accept the situation and nudges my pocket for a treat when he sees Riley harnessed up.

Once a Guide Dog retires it doesn’t mean that they magically become an everyday dog. To an extent I feel it is important for them to still have a Guide Dog’s life without the work. It is what they have known their entire lives. For example, Calvin still spends on command. He isn’t allowed on my bed or sofa. He isn’t fed tit bits from my plate.

Life as a Guide Dog is very stimulating. I sometimes wonder how pet dogs cope with going for casual walks and playing in the park day in day out. To keep Calvin mentally stimulated in retirement I was advised by one of the dog welfare people at Guide Dogs to purchase some enrichment products. Calvin is on 3 meals per day to help with digestion in his senior years. Breakfast is given in a fun feeder as is his last meal at night. His second meal is given in a Kong wobbler. The products ensure that each meal takes Calvin at least 15 minutes to finish and encourages him to work for his kibble.

Calvin has had to adjust to having a little brother in the form of Riley. The boys play nicely the majority of the time, but there is the usual sibling rivalry. Calvin has to assert his authority and wins at tug without fail. He regularly pinches toys from Riley resulting in Calvin having two or three in his possession and Riley whining because he has none. Often when I groom the pair, Calvin licks Riley’s ears and Riley rolls on to his back whilst they mouth each other. They can also be seen curled up near each other, touching heads or paws which is adorable.

Health and happiness are all I want for Calvin. His arthritis is being managed with You Move and medication. He is still able to go for at least an hour walk per day. He has to be limited to 2 free runs per week as he doesn’t know how to pace himself. It is the highlight of my day when he runs up the stairs to bed. On occasion he fails, but his determination will prevail and he will try again until he makes it. As for happiness, he is as bright eyed and bushy tailed as the day I met him. He is the friendliest canine you will ever meet.

I am taking part in the 2.6 Challenge to help save our UK charities. If you enjoyed my blog post or are feeling generous please consider donating as little as £1 to support my chosen charities: The Norrie Disease Foundation, Guide Dogs for the Blind, Look UK, RNIB and Girl Guiding UK. You can find my fundraising page by clicking here

Thank you and stay safe x



Wednesday 6 May 2020

10 Things About Riley

Blog 11 – 2.6 Challenge – 26 blog posts over 26 days…

Today marks 4 months since Riley and I started training together. Our partnership is still in its infancy and I am continuously learning about his character. I have listed below the 10 things I know about the black Labrador cross retriever so far.

1. Probably not his most glamourous feature, but Riley is a serious drool machine. At the sight of food the saliva just slides out. When working Riley is rewarded with treats when he finds something well. This means I have started to take a small towel with me for when we reach our destination so I can clean the pup’s mouth up on our arrival to make him look handsome again.

2. Riley enjoys being underneath the dining table. He darts under there when he has something he shouldn’t, races under there when he doesn’t want to be groomed, dives under there when I get his lead or relaxes under there just because. If I ever can’t find Riley it is a guarantee he can be located underneath the table.

3. Riley walks up the stairs in the house rather than runs. It is the most bizarre quirk of his. I don’t know if it is a learnt habit from Guide Dog training, but he climbs each step slowly and carefully. This often means he can sneak upstairs without you realising and so has been nicknamed the ninja.

4. Riley talks. He is very communicative with his whines. They generally mean I need a busy, I’m bored or I want to play.

5. Riley’s favourite thing to do in the whole wide world is to find crossing boxes. As soon as he is given the command to find the box or clocks one his speed rapidly increases and we literally sprint to the box.

6. Riley loves to launch himself at Calvin. It is great that Riley adores his big brother. However, I do fear that Riley might properly break him one day with his bouncy ways. Without fail when I bring Calvin in from spending in the morning Riley is always poised to pounce. We all remain still and it is usually me who makes the first move that results in Riley catapulting himself at Calvin.

7. Riley has the biggest ears. Big ears on a human are not cool. Big ears on a puppy are the cutest thing ever. Riley’s ears are far too big and long for his head. I imagine they give him a pretty boy look.

8. Riley has super recall. Three blows on the whistle and it doesn’t matter if he is out of sight and sound, Riley will come charging happily, bells jangling on his collar.

9. Riley can give you his paw. I know a lot of dogs can do this. Riley can of course do a lot of other amazing things like guide me around obstacles and find doors etc, but I feel like it was a hidden skill that I discovered by chance. I simply asked him one day ‘paw’ and without hesitation he gave it to me. I wonder what other secret skills he has.

10. Last but not least Riley is a water boy. He can often be found dive bombing into streams and pools. When it comes to being washed clean on the other hand Riley develops a sudden aversion to water.

I am taking part in the 2.6 Challenge to help save our UK charities. If you enjoyed my blog post or are feeling generous please consider donating as little as £1 to support my chosen charities: The Norrie Disease Foundation, Guide Dogs for the Blind, Look UK, RNIB and Girl Guiding UK. You can find my fundraising page by clicking here

Thank you and stay safe x


Tuesday 5 May 2020

AfterShokz and Microsoft Soundscape

Blog 10 – 2.6 Challenge – 26 blog posts over 26 days…

Owning a Guide Dog is great. They give you freedom. They allow you to travel through the streets at speed avoiding obstacles on the way. They work in straight lines and so will stop at each curb waiting for the next instruction. They can find crossing boxes, doors and steps. However, what you have to remember is that they are not robots. They are dogs with their own minds and personalities. They can get distracted. They can take you on magical mystical tours. They are not satellite navigation systems.

This is why when I work a Guide Dog I always use a GPS device as well. In the past I used to use the Trekker Breeze. When my last one broke last summer my immediate response was to purchase another only to discover that they are no longer made. There is an alternative product with a much higher price tag and features that don’t interest me. So I hunted elsewhere and came across the Microsoft Soundscape app which is free.

I downloaded it to my phone and knew that holding my phone in one hand whilst I walked was not ideal nor was having headphones in blocking my hearing. More research was done and I purchased AfterShokz Trekz Titanium mini wireless bone conducting headphones. The combination of the app and headphones has been a game changer.

First the headphones. They sit comfortably around your ears and rest on your cheek bones. Imagine wearing glasses backwards to understand how they fit. They were easy to set up as they speak to let you know when they are in pairing mode. They also speak to relay the battery level and let you know when they are connected to your device. There is a handy button on the side that allows you to answer phone calls saving the hassle of rummaging through your pockets for your phone. Since the way they sit on your head your ears are free to hear traffic and other sounds around you which is the best bit about them. The battery life is good, so good that I can never remember the last time I charged them. At around £70 they are a little expensive, but worth every penny.

Microsoft Soundscape is simple to use. You just open the app before you leave, lock your phone and you are on your way. It has 3D audio cues. In non-technical terms this means it announces landmarks and the like from the direction they are located. For example, if a shop is on your right it will announce the name of the shop through the right headphone. This enables the user to create a mental map. Some people might find the level of information provided over the top. I personally love it. It lets me know when I am approaching intersections, controlled crossings, bus stops, walking paths, schools, parks, local businesses and even the steps to the footbridge at my local train station. The information enhances my independence as I am able to cue my Guide Dog in to find the curb or the box or the door. It lets me lapse in concentration, relax and enjoy my surroundings.

The app also works well on public transport. I have used it on the bus to make sure I get off at the correct stop. If you do get lost you can open the app and select to hear my location, nearby markers, what’s around me and what’s ahead of me. You can add in audio markers for specific landmarks, but I have never needed to do this. It is possible to use it in conjunction with Google maps or other navigation apps if you require step by step instructions. The one downside to the app is ensuring you have enough battery on your phone before you set off. When using it for prolonged periods it can drain it quite fast. All in all I thoroughly recommend it.

I am taking part in the 2.6 Challenge to help save our UK charities. If you enjoyed my blog post or are feeling generous please consider donating as little as £1 to support my chosen charities: The Norrie Disease Foundation, Guide Dogs for the Blind, Look UK, RNIB and Girl Guiding UK. You can find my fundraising page by clicking here

Thank you and stay safe x

Monday 4 May 2020

Share Your Care

Blog 9 – 2.6 Challenge – 26 blog posts over 26 days…

Since 2016 I have been working as an Expert by Experience for Choice Support helping the CQC (Care Quality Commission) with inspections of health and social care services. An Expert by Experience is someone who has personal experience of using or cares for someone who uses health and social care provisions. The role involves chatting with service users to find out if they are receiving safe, effective, caring, responsive and well-led care. The work is diverse and highly rewarding.

On 16 March 2020 the CQC took the decision to suspend all routine inspections in light of the pandemic. Instead they are supporting care providers through this challenging period and only inspecting when there is an urgent need. As an Expert by Experience I feel strongly about people having a good level of care. It is important that service users have their voices heard, now more than ever.

So I would like to invite people to share their care. There is a form on the CQC website where you can give feedback about the care you or a loved one receives from a regulated service. Regulated services include places such as care homes, care agencies, hospitals and GP surgeries. The feedback can be positive or negative. The information gathered will enable the CQC to monitor services.

You can share your care through the CQC website by clicking here

I am taking part in the 2.6 Challenge to help save our UK charities. If you enjoyed my blog post or are feeling generous please consider donating as little as £1 to support my chosen charities: The Norrie Disease Foundation, Guide Dogs for the Blind, Look UK, RNIB and Girl Guiding UK. You can find my fundraising page by clicking here

Thank you and stay safe x




Sunday 3 May 2020

More 5 Star Reads

Blog 8 – 2.6 Challenge – 26 blog posts over 26 days…

Back in 2017 I suggested 15 books that I had rated 5 out of 5 stars on Good Reads. You can check out that list by clicking here


3 years on I think it is time to share some more Recommendations. Here are 10 more books I have rated 5 out of 5 stars on Good Reads.

1. After the End by Clare Mackintosh
2. The Child Bride by Cathy Glass
3. And Then It Happened by Linda Green
4. Leaving Time by Jodi Picoult
5. Smack by Melvin Burgess
6. The Stranger Within by Kathryn Croft
7. The Love Shack by Jane Costello
8. Local Girl Missing by Claire Douglas
9. Her Every Fear by Peter Swanson
10. The Tattooist of Auschwitz by Heather Morris

I am taking part in the 2.6 Challenge to help save our UK charities. If you enjoyed my blog post or are feeling generous please consider donating as little as £1 to support my chosen charities: The Norrie Disease Foundation, Guide Dogs for the Blind, Look UK, RNIB and Girl Guiding UK. You can find my fundraising page by clicking here

Thank you, stay safe and happy reading x



Saturday 2 May 2020

Crufts

Blog 7 – 2.6 Challenge – 26 blog posts over 26 days…

Crufts. A celebration of dogs. Back in March myself, my partner and new Guide Dog Riley attended Crufts. The plan was to leave Riley behind as I knew it would be like taking a sugar filled child to Disneyland at Christmas. However, Riley ensured his place by accidently injuring big brother Calvin days before by playing a little bit to energetically. This meant the boys needed to be kept apart to ensure Calvin could recover. So my parents were unable to dog-sit both boys.

I learnt that Riley was actually an annual Crufts attendee. He had volunteered on the Guide Dogs stand the year before with his Puppy Walker and I was assured he was well behaved. Unlike Riley it was my first time at Crufts. I didn’t really know what to expect. I had seen bits of it on TV over the years, but it never particularly interested me. It is easy to assume it is all about the dog show. It is so much more.

My motive for going was to do some essential dog shopping. Since the arrival of Riley the boys had successfully destroyed every soft toy available through tug. The toy box was looking very empty. I heard that there would be hundreds of stalls at the event which makes sense when you think about it.

On arrival at the NEC in Birmingham we first visited the Guide Dogs stand that was handily positioned near the entrance. Riley was reunited with his Puppy Walker who was volunteering for Guide Dogs again. Despite spending his first year of life with his Puppy Walker who raised him into a respectable Labrador cross retriever, Riley showed no hint of recognition. I was personally disappointed for her after all of the time and effort she would have put in. Nevertheless I could see how proud she was of Riley in his Guide Dog harness. He had made it. When Riley saw his old playmate Harrison on the other hand the pup couldn’t contain his excitement. It would have been about a year since Riley and Harrison had played last. The long lost friends greeted each other exuberantly causing hearts to melt all around.

I think until you visit Crufts it is impossible to appreciate the size of the event. It is simply enormous. There are literally hundreds and hundreds of stalls not even all dog related. Prepare for achy feet and body as you spend hours exploring. We were quite surprised not to find some weird and wonderful products though. For example like the Mud Daddy we have to clean the dogs after a muddy walk or after Calvin has rolled in something he shouldn’t. I did make some purchases including a deluxe licky mat, licky mat sprinkles, a Chuckit tug toy, a knots Kong bear, a stuffingless Kong monkey and a Mighty kangaroo. The boys have wrecked every last one of the products that all claim to be super durable. I feel like they need to be volunteer testers. Calvin and Riley still enjoy playing with the toys in their sorry looking states which is something.

One great part of Crufts is the Discover Dogs section. Sadly we didn’t discover the section until late afternoon meaning many dogs had already left. It is where you can meet over 200 different breeds of dog. I had the pleasure of stroking a variety of dogs and chatting to their friendly owners. There were dogs of all different shapes and sizes. From long hair to short hair it was fascinating. One of the highlights was stroking a Great Dane and we fell in love with the Norwegian Buhund.

After 7 tiring but thoroughly enjoyable hours it was time to leave. My shoulder was aching somewhat from Riley pulling on the lead. To be fair he behaved remarkably considering being in doggy heaven. We had a novel chippy lunch on a double decker bus and didn’t even get a chance to see any of the dog shows. It was a fun day. We plan to return next year and aim to arrive early, take lots of breaks, spend more time interacting with the dogs, check out some of the shows and no doubt buy more toys for the boys to destroy!

I am taking part in the 2.6 Challenge to help save our UK charities. If you enjoyed my blog post or are feeling generous please consider donating as little as £1 to support my chosen charities: The Norrie Disease Foundation, Guide Dogs for the Blind, Look UK, RNIB and Girl Guiding UK. You can find my fundraising page by clicking here

Thank you and stay safe x

Friday 1 May 2020

Girl Guiding

Blog 6 – 2.6 Challenge – 26 blog posts over 26 days…

The final charity I have chosen to support is Girl Guiding. The Brownie Guide law states: A Brownie Guide thinks of others before herself and does a good turn every day.

When I was a child I was a Brownie. I was a Pixie and became both Seconder and Sixer of my Six. I didn’t continue to Guides as in Year 6 my vision started to significantly deteriorate. However, I always had fond memories of being a Brownie.

In 2015 I started volunteering for my local Brownie pack. Initially it was to gain experience with children as I once planned on going into teaching. It soon became part of everyday life and Friday night became Brownie night.

Having a disability I was nervous to volunteer for a non-disabled organisation. I needn’t have worried as from day 1 Brown Owl welcomed me with open arms and continuously works to ensure my Brownie experience is inclusive and accessible. She encourages me to lead where I can and ensures I receive the Brownie resources in an accessible format.

The girls are lovely too. They don’t bat an eyelid at my visual impairment. They happily describe the activities they are completing and love to fuss my Guide Dog, first Calvin and now Riley.

Volunteering at Brownies pushes me outside of my comfort zone. At times I chastise myself for not throwing myself into the meetings more. On occasion I recognise that by attending in itself is an achievement and remind myself that I am doing my best.

During lockdown I have been in awe of Brown Owl and Silver Fox who are managing to keep Brownies running. They are using their daily exercise to deliver materials to the girls. We have a closed Face Book group where the parents are uploading photos and videos of the Brownies work. It has been heart-warming to see how the girls are still enthusiastic and motivated to do Brownies from home.

Please consider doing a good turn and donating as little as £1 to help save our UK charities. You can find my fundraising page by clicking here

Thank you, thank you, thank you and stay safe x

Thursday 30 April 2020

RNIB

Blog 5 – 2.6 Challenge – 26 blog posts over 26 days…

The penultimate charity I have chosen to support is RNIB. The giant of sight loss charities in the UK.

Ordinarily I would never consider fundraising for RNIB. As mentioned they are a supersize charity so it is easy to believe that they don’t struggle for funds. However, no charity is immune from the pandemic. Being a large charity they provide a vast number of services for blind and partially sighted people. There is a joke within the visually impaired community that RNIB stands for Really Not Interested in Blind people. Yet I think every visually impaired person has accessed an RNIB service at some point and we do so quite casually. We take RNIB for granted.

RNIB has a dedicated helpline and offers advice on sight loss, benefits, technology, generally anything sight loss related. They have a useful online shop with various blind friendly products. They campaign for visually impaired people’s rights. They run a radio station. Basically they do anything and everything.

My favourite RNIB service is their library. I used to loan books out in Braille, but now I prefer to download audio books from them instead. Reading is a passion of mine. I enjoy chick lit, thrillers, fantasy, dystopia, young adult and real life stories. My taste is pretty broad. Thanks to RNIB’s library I am able to lose myself in another world.

Please consider donating as little as £1 to help save our UK charities. You can find my fundraising page by clicking here

Thank you and stay safe x


Wednesday 29 April 2020

Look UK

Blog 4 – 2.6 Challenge – 26 blog posts over 26 days…

The third charity I have chosen to support is Look. They are a relatively small sight loss charity supporting children, young people and their families. I have volunteered for them in the past and have some great memories from 2006 when I travelled with them to Berlin for the International Computer Camp.

The reason I have decided to fundraise for them now is because of the fab work they are doing during lockdown. Everyone is feeling more isolated than usual. To combat this people are sharing funny videos, posting various photos and joining in with You Tube work outs. As someone with a visual impairment the inaccessibility of these activities has been felt deeply. I was keen to try something new and connect with people too.

About 6 weeks ago, right at the beginning of lockdown Look advertised a 4 week mindfulness course. It was to be run by Wise Kids and via the conferencing platform Zoom. I can’t say I have ever wished to learn about mindfulness, associating it with hippies and the like. However, the opportunity was there and I thought why not.

It was one of the best decisions I have ever made. I looked forward to Tuesday and Thursday nights. It was a time where I could focus on myself. A time to relax, listen and learn. Mindfulness is not just about meditation. It is about absorption, appreciation and acknowledgment. By writing this blog I am practicing mindfulness. It is really worth exploring if you ever get the chance.

The course was so successful that Look are continuing it for a further 4 weeks, starting from tonight and I can’t wait. Look have been hosting a number of Zoom events enabling visually impaired people and their families to connect, socialise and benefit during this tricky time. I hope post lockdown that it is something that they will be able to continue with in the future.

Please consider donating as little as £1 to help save our UK charities. You can find my fundraising page by clicking here

Thank you and stay safe x

Tuesday 28 April 2020

Guide Dogs

Blog 3 – 2.6 Challenge – 26 blog posts over 26 days…

The second charity I have chosen to fundraise for is Guide Dogs. I guess it is a fairly obvious charity for me to support since I am the proud owner of my retired Guide Dog Calvin and new Guide Dog Riley. It is a cliché to write, but they are real life changers. I love nothing more than striding through the streets with not a care in the world, something that wouldn’t be possible without a Guide Dog by my side. A Guide Dog provides a level of independence that otherwise couldn’t be achieved by other means. They offer freedom.

For both boys I had to wait for nearly 2 years on the waiting list. Thankfully Calvin was a superstar and worked beyond his 11th birthday meaning I wasn’t left without a guide at any point whilst I waited for Riley to take over the reins. I count myself even luckier that Riley and I managed to get trained up and qualified before the pandemic.

Others however are not as fortunate as me. I have friends that have been waiting for a replacement Guide Dog for over 2 years and on top of that have no Guide Dog at present. With the situation we find ourselves in their wait time is going to be significantly increased as all Guide Dog training has stopped and all dogs are with temporary boarders.

Waiting times were already too long. The charity was already stretched. Please consider donating as little as £1 to help save our UK charities. You can find my fundraising page by clicking here

Thank you and stay safe x

Monday 27 April 2020

The Norrie Disease Foundation

Blog 2 – 2.6 Challenge – 26 blog posts over 26 days…

It makes sense to spend the first few blogs explaining why I have chosen to fundraise for each charity. So first up is The Norrie Disease Foundation.

For those who know me will know that I am an Ambassador for the NDF. The genetic condition generally affects males. However, I was the first female in the world to be diagnosed with Norrie Disease. My claim to fame. My older brother and 2 uncles have also been affected by Norrie.

The NDF recently had a major fundraising campaign where we needed to raise a massive £62500 in order to fund vital preventative hearing loss research. Despite being a tiny community, less than 50 people have Norrie Disease in the UK we managed to hit the target. The support I received from family and friends was phenomenal and will never be forgotten.

So you might wonder why am I fundraising for the NDF again? I appreciate friends and family may be reluctant to sponsor me after already making a contribution before. The truth is that it is a charity that is close to my heart. It is such a small charity trying to do enormous things. At a time where the world is in crisis, it is the little charities that are going to suffer the most. For most of my life there was no UK based charity for my condition. No support network. No hope of research or treatment. In 2017 that all changed when The Norrie Disease Foundation launched. It feels cheeky asking for donations again, especially since it wasn’t long since I did so last. Nevertheless, if I don’t then myself and the Norrie community might be left without support once more.

Please consider donating as little as £1 to help save our UK charities. You can find my fundraising page by clicking here

Thank you and stay safe x

Sunday 26 April 2020

2.6 Challenge

Blog 1- 2.6 Challenge – 26 blog posts over 26 days…

I have decided to sign up to the 2.6 Challenge to help save our UK charities. It is an initiative set up by the London marathon organisers who are challenging 2.6 million people to raise £26.20 each by partaking in a challenge relating to 2.6 or 26 in order to make up the millions of pounds that will be lost by the cancelation of everyday fundraising events.

In an ideal world I would have liked to have been able to fundraise for all charities since every charity does amazing work. However, it is only possible to select 5 charities. So I have chosen The Norrie Disease Foundation, Guide Dogs for the Blind, Look UK, RNIB and Girl Guiding UK. These have all been selected as they are important to me and my wellbeing. Also, by choosing these charities they will all be eligible for a donation from The Charities Aid Foundation who will be distributing funds from the 2.6 Challenge where people have made a general donation.

For the challenge I am going to write 26 blog posts over 26 days kicking off today Sunday 26 April. This is possibly cheating a little, but this is the first blog post. I have been blogging since 2008. There are so many topics and life events that I crave to write about yet always fail to find the time. For 26 days at least this is going to change.

I know times are tough. If you could spare a few pounds to help save our UK charities it would be much appreciated. They all do such fantastic work and need our support more than ever.

Please consider donating as little as £1 to help save our UK charities. You can find my fundraising page by clicking here

Thank you and stay safe x

Saturday 28 March 2020

Training with Riley

It’s time to write about my training with Riley. I drafted the first week of class weeks ago, but it has been such a bumpy ride with him that I have been uncertain what to write. Things have now settled down and I have plenty of time to blog.

Training with a new Guide Dog is hard even if you have had one or more before. Having this piece of knowledge is useful, but nothing can actually prepare you for how exhausting it actually is until you do it. My plan was to write a short daily account at the end of each day to log what I had done. However, my laptop didn’t leave my bag the whole time I was at the hotel, as I just wanted to crawl into bed each night and sleep. So the following is going to lack some details. Nevertheless, I still want to try and remember in future what it was like to train with my second Guide Dog Riley. Class started on Monday 6 January 2020.

Monday
I arrived at the Premier Inn hotel in Rugby around 11.30 in the morning after a restless night. I think it was a combination of nerves and a feeling of guilt that I was betraying my first Guide Dog Calvin. Handing over his harness felt super emotional. Before I got to meet Riley again I did some orientation around the hotel. My room to the dining room and my room to the spending area.

I was looking forward to seeing Riley again, it had been over a month since I had done so last. The black Labrador cross retriever burst into the room and darted straight for his toys in his bed, which had kindly been given to him by his Puppy Walker and Borders. I thought it was lovely for him to have some familiar items even though I had bought him some toys too. What struck me about Riley was the amount of energy he possessed. He appeared much more livelier than I had seen him before and he quickly invited me to a game of tug. After several rounds I sat on the floor and he casually rolled on to his back for a belly rub. I was falling in love with the pup already.

Once we had been fully reacquainted we did some obedience with Riley on the lead around the hotel. He had to sit at doors and not pull on the lead. It took a little bit of work, but he soon responded well.

My memory is a little fuzzy, I think we had lunch next and then had further bonding time in the room before we went through the Guide Dog contract. Then suddenly it was dinner and bedtime. Although we didn’t go out for a walk I was mentally drained.

Tuesday
Riley slept like an angel, not even moving out of his bed the whole night. I on the other hand was up and down like a yo-yo, just not settling. How I managed to get through the day, I’m still not sure.

After breakfast we did our first harness walk. It only involved right turns. I quickly became very hot and wondered if Riley was in fact too fast for me. He was stopping short at curbs, I think partly due to me hesitating being in an unfamiliar environment.

We went back to the hotel before the second walk so I could change into a lighter coat. This walk involved both right and left turns. I have no recollection of the third walk and when I was told there would be a fourth walk I nearly fainted. Thankfully it was a short one. Yet the day was not done there as we finished off with checking and grooming. Riley didn’t really sit still so I couldn’t groom him, but we went through what needed doing.

Of course I have owned a Guide Dog before. However, everything is all a bit different from the way I put Riley’s harness on to how I instruct him to turn. Plus I have developed so many bad habits it is a challenge to retrain the brain.

Wednesday
I had a better night sleep and felt a little more refreshed. Again Riley slept soundly as I have learnt he always does. We started the day with the same block route as the day before, but just extended it a bit. Then we did a route that included rounded curbs and practiced indenting. After we went to Sainsbury’s, I was pleased to discover that Riley can walk at a steady pace indoors. After lunch we did a big walk into town where things were more challenging with the amount of people and obstacles. Riley was given the opportunity to show off his party trick, which was one of my highlights of the week. He strode into B & M and without any direction navigated his way through the aisles until he found the one he wanted. He then proceeded to choose the dog toy he wanted and we took it to the counter to pay. Fortunately the boy doesn’t have expensive taste and we purchased a squeaky skunk for £1.99. I was advised he could carry it for the rest of the walk if I wished, we didn’t do this. The walk then continued through the park. Riley coped pretty well, only veering towards the grass at times.

Thursday
This was a good day of training. The morning kicked off with traffic training where cars are driven at you from near, far and from driveways. Riley was an absolute superstar ensuring we were safe at all times. Next up was train travel into Coventry city centre. Unknown to me, you should never work your dog on to a train. So that was new. Riley scrambled underneath the seats and licked whatever delights were available. I had the chance to practice stairs with him, as well as crossing boxes, shops and a city centre environment.

After lunch one of the managers came out to observe our work. We went into town again and walked alongside the park. There was a scary moment where a potential dog attack nearly occurred. I had no knowledge of the danger until my trainer grabbed Riley from me and a man started shouting that his apparently ginormous dog wasn’t going to attack. When in fact the dog had grabbed the manager’s coat as she tried to intercept the situation. We were all a little shaken and it was lucky that I had two people with me at the time. Attacks on Guide Dogs are so frequent these days it is a real worry.

That evening I was determined to groom Riley. Yet he had other ideas and kept running back to his bed. So I admitted defeat and we had an early final night at the hotel.

Friday
It was nearly home time and I was feeling eager to get back to see Calvin who had been up to mischief whilst I was away and spent a couple of nights at the vet hospital. We could choose the walk and I decided to do a walk that we did on day one so I could compare how far we had come. It didn’t start particularly well as Riley walked me straight into a bin. After that though we were flying and it was exactly the confirmation I needed that we could become a great partnership. Riley was going up to curbs really well, avoided obstacles amazingly and I felt thankful that I had been given such a competent guide.

It was time for Riley to have some fun after a busy week for the both of us and we headed to the park. He pulled like crazy, naturally super excited about the prospect of being free. I had to keep making him sit after every couple of steps and he also had to do some obedience before being let off. He thoroughly enjoyed the run around and I was happy to hear he wasn’t a roller.

The trainer took us home and it was Riley’s lucky day as we needed to free run Eefie with him before entering the house. Calvin came along too and considering his hospital stay seemed in top spirits.

Eefie was a little angry, but seemed to accept Riley into the house. Then the trainer left and all hell broke loose. I don’t really want to write too much about Eefie and her behaviour towards Riley. What I will say is that she wanted to attack him at any given opportunity. Life became very stressful.

Saturday
The trainer came over to help with Eefie’s behaviour and I managed to look after three dogs whilst my partner was at work.

Sunday
We took the dogs for a free run in the morning and they all played really nicely. Riley loves water and had a blast at my local flooded park. Again I managed three dogs by myself whilst my partner went to work again. My mum came over for a visit and Riley immediately became friends.

The second week of training went smoothly. The first couple of days we taught Riley two block routes. By the Wednesday we were signed off both. On Thursday we did the route to the Doctor’s, Oasis Health and Beauty, the train station and my parents. They all follow on from each other. Riley loved being in a new environment, zipping along happily. On Friday we did our first ever solo walk. I linked the small block and larger block routes together. I felt electric.

Unfortunately in week 3 we had to have a change of trainers. To date Riley had always been clean on walks. Yet day one with a new trainer he pulled over to the grass and did a big busy. This then happened on a few more occasions during class. Having a dog that was clean on walks was important to me and I found the spending quite disheartening.

Nonetheless, Riley continued to do some brilliant work. We caught the bus to Fosse Shopping Park where he wagged his tail merrily all the way around. We caught the train into town, walked the route to Brownies and visited one of my work locations and showed him the route to the bus stop there.

In week 4 we made the unbelievably difficult decision to send Eefie to live with my partner’s mum in Reading. Despite constantly trying to correct her behaviour she just wouldn’t accept Riley in the house.

Nobody can qualify until week 5 of training these days. On Thursday 6 February, exactly one month since training commenced we did our qualification walk to the Doctor’s and picked up my eye drops from the chemist inside. I paid my 50p and Riley officially became a Guide Dog.

In the weeks that followed I struggled more and more with riley’s spending. It came to a head when my partner came out on a walk with us one windy weekend and Riley dropped three big busies as he was walking along without my knowledge. I contacted Guide Dogs for help and was given some advice that didn’t improve matters. I was beginning to lose hope and started to feel defeated. It wasn’t ideal, but I was trying to convince myself at least I have a Guide Dog. They are not robots after all.

Thankfully a couple of weeks ago our original trainer returned and because she knows Riley inside out she was able to put a plan of action in place before we all went into lock down. Riley is now consistently doing a big busy straight after breakfast and I have a technique to reduce the chances of him spending on walks. We have had two weeks of clean walks now and whilst the technique is a little inconvenient, I am enjoying getting out and about with Riley. At a time where we are limited to one form of outdoor exercise per day I’m pleased that I have Riley by my side enabling me to navigate the streets independently.

Friday 28 February 2020

About Time

It’s time. Time I started blogging again. Time to make time. I just never seem to have a spare minute these days. There is always something that needs doing from the moment I wake up to the moment I call it a night. I guess it is good to keep busy. Sometimes it is nice to be able to sit down and reflect though. I have been craving the opportunity to write. To write down everything before it fades from memory.

2020 is rushing by. The year has been full on to date. Nevertheless, I need to return to 2019 and all of its happenings.

2019
There is never a dull period in life. 2019 sent me on a rollercoaster of emotions. I decided to have knee surgery in the hope that I could run pain free again. Although I am still not pain free or able to run on the track I am glad that I went for the surgery. I am enjoying running on the soft surface rugby pitch for now and look forward to progressing on to harder surfaces in 2020. I have accepted that my knee will probably never feel completely comfortable. However, I am able to be active and clinging on to the dream of racing once more.

Much of 2019 was spent waiting for a new Guide Dog. As the year was drawing to a close it appeared the waiting game would continue into 2020 then I got the surprise match and learnt Guide Dog number two would be Riley. Calvin officially retired on New Year’s Day. Sadly he had a terrible sickness and tummy bug the last few days of the year. So I wasn’t able to walk the routes I had planned with him for the final time. Despite this, we did the walk to my parents before he was struck down. It is a nice two and a half mile stretch that gave me time to reminisce about our partnership. We had so many adventures together, far too many to write right now. I am just super proud of him for guiding me for over ten years. His laid back, care free attitude enabled me not to be left without my independence. I am lucky that I can keep him with me in his retirement.

And the reason that I can keep him is because my partner moved in. I have reached a point in my life where I have met someone to share my home with. I’m slowly creeping up the grown-up ladder. I appreciate him moving up to Leicester from Reading meaning that I am close to my family and friends as well as being in a familiar environment. Thankfully he was able to transfer his job up to here.

One more significant thing happened in 2019. I got a new job. For many people with a disability finding work is beyond a challenge. I had my many struggles years ago. I never thought I would have two fulfilling roles and two supportive employers. Both of my jobs are 0 hour contracts, which suits my lifestyle. I had a lovely busy year working as an Expert by Experience for Choice Support. In November I started working as an Expert by Experience for Voiceability. Whilst my job title is the same at both places, the work involved is different yet connected. At Choice Support I help the CQC with inspections of health and social care services. At Voiceability I attend care, education and treatment reviews for people who have a learning disability and or autism who are at risk of being admitted to hospital due to challenging behaviour or poor mental health. Both roles are highly rewarding.

2020
A new decade. A new Guide Dog. I started training with Riley on 6 January. More on that in future blog posts. The year is already proving tough. Training with a new Guide Dog was never going to be easy. Calvin and Riley get on well, but boisterous play means Calvin is currently at my parents recovering from a sprained paw!

Before the end of 2020 I would like Calvin in one piece, to be a confident partnership with Riley, running on the track and generally loving life. I have some fun activities lined up. Attending Crufts, the theatre, Euro 2020 football, concerts including my beloved Westlife and two friends weddings.